Well that sucked/GPOYF
This site has been down for the last couple of weeks because my bandwidth was exceeded. I want to say it's because everyone suddenly likes (or "pluses") the things have to I say, and GAS has become so popular it can't handle the traffic, but the culprit is probably Jojo's response to Marvin's room. I've re-linked it as a YouTube video instead of a download.
The rest of July went just as shittily as the first half anyway, ending with two more funerals, the death of three pets and a minor car accident. Everything seemed so out of whack and ridiculous that a couple of my friends and I played the lottery just to see what would happen.
Before checking our numbers my roommate and I went to brunch at a little spot in the city called Serpentine. "Hey, when we get home there's like a .0000000001% chance we're going to be millionaires," I said. She looked at me, burst into laughterso loud that the people at the table next to us turned to see what was going on, and before I knew it we were both in unexpected hysterics, tears welling up in the corners of our eyes, hands clutching at our stomachs.
We didn't win, but that moment sure was worth the three dollars.
Well said
Try looking at your mind as a wayward puppy that you are trying to paper train. You don’t drop-kick a puppy into the neighbor’s yard every time it piddles on the floor. You just keep bringing it back to the newspaper. So I keep trying gently to bring my mind back to what is really there to be seen, maybe to be seen and noted with a kind of reverence. Because if I don’t learn to do this, I think I’ll keep getting things wrong. -- Anne Lamott
GPOYW
Try as much as possible to be wholly alive, with all your might, and when you laugh, laugh like hell and when you get angry, get good and angry. Try to be alive. You will be dead soon enough. - William Saroyan
A couple of things:
1. I took this photo after a certain someone said, "Have faith, Chelsi."
2. Next I went to a funeral for the first time in over a decade, head held high. I cried. I laughed. I prayed. And then a hard truth hit me in the heart and I went home feeling empty, worthless and alone.
I can't say how much faith I have at this point but I know one thing's for certain: I'm alive. I'm definitely alive. I'm so painfully, painfully alive.
